Wedding slim down DAY 3

Days left:32

Much better day today. Hopped on the bike for a 3 mile ride after work today. Oh and I did get a bit of exercise done yesterday when I babysat. One of the kids is a year old so I used him to weight lift by playing games like airplane and toss me in the air and catch me. It was a really good workout I was feeling it this morning. Let's see calories wise did exactly 500 today stayed within my limit so that is much better then yesterday.

Tomorrow is another full day of work followed by babysitting. I'm shooting for a 400 calorie day followed by a fast on Thursday. Oh Oh I almost forgot tomorrow I'm getting on the scale not the most excited about that but I'm trying to keep myself in a positive mood. I'm not looking at the whole amount I weigh because I'm not going to be hitting my goal weight anytime soon. I'm just focusing on the amount lost. Keep your fingers crossed for at least 2 lbs.

Hope you all continue to shrink.

Wedding slim down DAY 2

Days left: 33

Quick post before I have to run to my other job. I'm so exhausted working 3 different jobs 6 days straight is wearing me down. I came home from one job today and I started crying really hard I'm so tired. Anyway no exercise today I'm too busy for that. Calorie wise went over my max limit of 500 I wasn't as obsessive about tracking my calories today but ruff estimate of around 600 and I think that's probably higher than what I actually eat but I just don't have the time and energy to really figure it out.

Sorry this is so short but I'm trying to really stick to my goal of posting everyday. Sorry my blog sucks ass I'm trying ladies I really am. Hopefully tomorrow my post is better. Think Thin Ladies.

Wedding slim down DAY 1

Days Left: 34

Here we go day one went well. My body is so sore form yesterdays work out that I can barely walk down my stairs. I know some of you are saying "girl that is not a good sign". My answer is your probably right but the pain reminds me I'm alive. We could get into a whole discussion about that last sentence and my self harming tendencies but this is not the time for that. We can have that conversation in 34 day. Back on topic I haven't exercised yet today but I'm going to do some light weight lifting after I post. Definitely need to take it easy for the next few days.

So on to calories of the day.

1 Piece of Cheese - 90 Calories
Low Cal Bread x2 - 80 Calories
Butter with Olive Oil x 1 Tbsp - 90 Calories
1 Apple - 80 Calories
Weird Diet program fudge cake - 100 Calories
Crystal Light - 10 Calories

Grand total = 450 Calories

50 more calories than I was hoping to consume today. Still could have been worse right so I'm happy overall with today. So onto tomorrow which is going to be a long day. Of working 2 out of 3 of my current jobs. Food wise I'm thinking 2 pieces of low calorie bread one slice for breakfast one for dinner. For lunch I'm thinking either an apple or lettuce. Also a lot of water I only had 2 bottles of water today far less then what I expect of myself.

That's all for today I guess. Oh and sorry my posts being so generic and boring I've been out of practice for awhile as we all know I promise they will get better we will have some interesting times ahead with bridal showers and maid of honor duties starting to pick up.

Sam I'm sure you looked beautiful and deliciously thin at the wedding you went to. I hope you had a good time.

Wedding is close time to get my fat ass in gear

Alright ladies here we go one month to wedding time and well I'm no where near being skinny enough of course that's my own fucking fault. There's nothing I can about being a dumb ass and eating now. So here's the plan for the next month:

- Fasting at least twice a week but shooting for every other day
- Days I do eat only 500 calories max
- Exercise everyday
- Blog every day when possible

Not the most complicated plan I know but really basic are best. Not a long post but I'm exhausted from working out a 3 times today. Talk to you tomorrow ladies.

Being a Nanny is hell on my waist line

PSA: I do not advise anyone anywhere to binge and purge or to starve themselves ok on to the post

Last Monday after I put the kids down I purged in a strangers house after making cup cakes and shoving them in my fat face. Note to self remember to buy a toothbrush and toothpaste to keep in my purse at all times. It was not fun sitting around for 3 hours with barf breath waiting to be off duty. Ugh sometimes I think I need a live in position so I don't have to deal with that shit.

For the past week I've been up north being a nanny for a different family and I've stuffed my fat face. I've l0st 10 pounds this month but I feel like this week I gained it all back. Tomorrow I'm planning on doing a one day fast. I would like to make it longer but I have to drive 6 hours home on Thursday and I don't feel safe doing that on an empty stomach. I have a bridal shower Thursday night so I'm going to have to eat something. I'm thinking a Friday/Saturday fast and anything that gets put in my body other than water is getting purged out I don't have much time left before this wedding and I need to stop being weak. I fucking hate myself for eating so much I think tonight I'm going to have a nice purge session when I put the kids to bed. I need to seriously start learning how to fake eating in front of people I really suck at it. Thank god I get a few hours off during lunch time so I can claim to have eaten lunch when everyone is gone. Only problem is when the parents eat dinner and I'm like I'm not hungry and they are like we haven't seen you eat all day so I have to eat with them. Then it's like I go nuts with food. Not tomorrow though ladies I don't care who bugs me I'm not eating.

Yuck I just at two corn dogs blah because the kids didn't want to finish them plus the hot dogs and string cheese they took two bites from before wanting to eat corn dogs worst part is I can't purge while they are awake and it's two hours before they go to bed a lot of good that will do me. Well wish me luck ladies tomorrow is a big day.