Thursday, July 14, 2011


Blah my life has been so boring the past two years well three years as of August 1st. I've had no desire to constantly bore people with went to work, came home, went to bed. It's really pathetic I mean I'm 24 and scared to live life that's what I've done to myself. I've been so scared of life that I've successfully isolated myself from the world. It's gotten to the point where I've started making up stories about friends I don't have so people at work don't realize that I have no life. It's okay once I've gotten thin I'll make new friends until then I've got my imagination to keep me company. Fuck that makes me sound like such a fucking loser which I am.

On a positive I've lost 30 lbs in 2 months off of a diet of 1 granola bar for breakfast, 1 apple for lunch and a spoon full of peanut butter for dinner with sugar free under 5 calorie gum when ever I feel like I'm going to pig the fuck out.

I make no promises to update soon. Just know I'm on a journey to finally reach my ana goals and it (any Kerouac fans out their who get what I'm talking about because I've become obsessed with him) as fast as I can or I might finally lose my mind.